I’ve been asked- “because you’re in the field, would you do a stage competition?”
First, let me say how deeply I admire the dedication and discipline required for bikini and bodybuilding competitions. The level of commitment it takes is impressive, and I have nothing but respect for those who can manage the physical and mental demands of such a strict regimen. But this is simply my truth—and why I know I’ll never pursue that path.
The short answer? I’m not willing to do what it takes.
The long answer? I’m not willing to revisit a disordered relationship with food and exercise. I’ve worked hard to heal my mindset around movement and nutrition, and the rigid structure of competition prep would undo so much of that progress.
To be clear, a disordered relationship with food is not the same as a diagnosed eating disorder. If you suspect you may be struggling with an eating disorder, please seek professional and medical support. What I’m talking about is for all the gals (and pals) who’ve lived through cycles of extreme restriction—days of under-eating and over-exercising—followed by periods of guilt, bingeing, and burnout. That pattern is all too common, and breaking free from it takes more than willpower; it takes a total shift in mindset.
It means realizing you are worthy of nourishing your body regularly. You are worthy of movement that makes you strong and supports your life, not punishes your body. And yes, you’re also worthy of enjoying treats—without guilt, without spiraling, and without needing to “earn” them.
So no, I won’t be prepping for a bodybuilding competition. Because for me, health looks like flexibility, freedom, and a sustainable relationship with food and fitness. And that’s something I’ll never sacrifice again.